Memories

I've started a project where I'm thoroughly going through each little spot in my room and getting rid of things, organizing and tidying everything up. I like to horde memories, it's hard for me to get rid of stuff because each tiny thing has a memory attached to it. I just went through and old box full of cards, pictures, notes, tickets, and programs. It's amazing how you can suddenly remember something, a person, a place, a day or thought, that hadn't crossed your mind in ages. Our brains are amazing things!
Anyways, I didn't end up throwing anything away, but all my programs are neatly stored away in my Special Edition Harry Potter box. :)

While I was going through these things, I found a list of things I wanted to do. I'd say it dates about 2 or 3 years back...

1.Get better at piano (Eh)
2.Learn how to juggle (What? Nope.)
3. Learn to play cello. (Dx)
4.Be able to do clap push-ups. ( I can do 1 maybe every other month. I'm counting it.)
5.Become better at origami. (Hah, again, what?)
6.Lean to speak Korean. (In progress!)
7.Learn how to ride a horse well. (Define well...)
8.Speak French well. (Once again, define "well"...)
9.Learn to cook well. (These are too vague.)
10.Learn how to make friendship bracelets. (I had such random aspirations.)
11.Learn how to iceskate (Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha keep dreaming Past-Kylie)
12. Read all of Shakespeare's plays. (In the works)
13.Become good at cursive. (Why...)
14.Be able to do the splits. (Success!)
15. Make a giant snowman. (I  hate snow.)
16. Go skiing. (I hate snow.)

It's fun to look back at these like this. My goals have definitely changed, and it's fun to see what I actually accomplished and what I didn't. I would be such an interesting and random person if I was good at all of these things!

Peace out.

I think I want to start writing on here again. Not because I have the time, or the talent, or anything interesting to say. But there's something therapeutic about it. I've been writing in my journal a lot, but you can type out your thoughts so much quicker, and your hand doesn't cramp up.

Hm.
We'll see.

Today I wish you could just inject yourself with caffeine.
Just kidding that would be dangerous.
But really. 

Things I want to do

Here is a list of things I want to do... NOW

1.Move to France, have a Yann Tiersen party with French people while eating croissants.
2.Play the cello. I don't have to learn I suppose, I just want to try.
3. Work at an orphanage in Korea.
4. Buy a pair of Tom's shoes.
5. Be president for a day and make a bunch of stupid laws that annoy people.
6. Paint a whole room with chalkboard paint.
7. Learn to knit
8. Glue a horn to a horse. WOO!
9. Play Quidditch.
10. Travel the world.
11. Dress like Mary Poppins and get a job as a nanny in London.
12. Never stop drinking coffee for as long as I live.
12. Have two 12's! WHAT NOW!
13.Be a princess at Disney World.
14. Go on one of those ride a horse and camp for a week things.
15. Go on one of those go canoeing and camp for a week things.
16. Not go caving ever again. (Can you tell I'm kind of missin' AHG right now?)
YEP THAT'S WHAT I FEEL LIKE DOING RIGHT NOW! 

Sparkling in the sun

Water flows on endlessly

Splashing at my feet

The sea sings softly,

A welcome whisper upon my ear.

Calling me ever closer,

To set sail in the setting sun. 

There's something kind of romantic about the sea, and it inspired me to write. 

I was thoroughly enchanted this week by the sea, while I'm not a fan of playing in the water, the ocean was an exception. And obviously I had to take some pictures! 

One more poem, this one, sadly isn't mine. =P

As if the Sea should part
And show a further Sea --
And that -- a further -- and the Three
But a presumption be --

Of Periods of Seas --
Unvisited of Shores --
Themselves the Verge of Seas to be --
Eternity -- is Those --

(A sea within a sea, within a sea-within a sea? xP)

I don't even know

Wow! It's been 3 months. I really have nothing much of importance to say.
But I was looking back on some of my previous blogposts, and they're kind of depressing! Sometimes I wonder if I'm bipolar or something.
Really though, life is beautiful. Like seriously, what a glorious gift we've been given! And yet we take it for granted, and so easily forget about how blessed we are.

Something I've been thinking about alot is not taking stuff for granted.
Really appreciating people, art, music, nature, family, air condition, food! I mean really, I've seen hundreds of little kids throw away whole lunches this summer without a second thought. And it really started to bother me, I mean, I understand there's only so much we can do for starving kids on the other side of the world. But our society is so wasteful, and so STUFF oriented, it just really starts to make me think.

I've also been thinking a lot about Korea.
I'm going to move there someday. Whenever I tell somebody that they either laugh to look at me like I'm crazy; but seriously, I love that place and I really have no idea why. I feel like when you think if "typical" missionary places you think of Africa, Uganda, India, etc. And yeah, all those places need reached. But really, you can go next door for a "missions" trip. Does your neighbor know God? How about the barista you buy your coffee from every morning? I dunno.
I totally just got sidetracked. xP Once again it just kind of boils down to living in the moment, and living that moment to the fullest.

Yep! Well. I've been super inspired recently just to be... Artsy. Partly because I've been looking up a bunch of crafty room ideas, and I just always get inspired around this time! Maybe because everything's getting all vamped up for another school year, and I always get hyped up. :D

Growing up.

It's something that excites me and terrifies me all at the same time.
Something I'm eager for, and something I feel is happening to fast.
I suppose everyone has the same problem major contradictions when it comes to growing up, but I'm really starting to feel the growing pains. It's SO hard to find the happy medium of staying joyful, innocent, blissful and naive, when you're also starting to realize at some point you're just going to have to grow up and face reality.
There's bad stuff out there, but you have to remember all the good too. There are scary people, and wonderful people, there are days when you're going to have a lot of hard work to do, but there are also seasons where you can just sit back and relax.

Most of my friends have jobs, can drive, and some are going to college. That's all stuff that excites me, but there's still this little part of me, the little kid that refuses to grow up that wants to turn around and run the other way, back to when life was simpler, boys and had cooties and our parents cooked our meals for us.
Well I don't have any words of wisdom or anything today. x) I suppose that I could use some advice.

For now I guess I'll just pray and take each day as it comes. :]

Relax! :)

"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:34

I seriously think the Bible was written JUST for me, AS I'm reading it WHILE whatever is going on.
Okay the while didn't really need to be in caps... But anyways...
I guess that's why they call it the Living Word, right? It really is amazing!

Dreaming of spring.  Plus I feel like this has a nice "Relax" vibe to it. ;)

I've been stressing a lot recently. I think part of it's because I've been sick. And that always gets me kind of out of wack. But I also think every spazztic teenage girl needs to have their random spurts of stress. Or maybe I'm just a particularly spazztic teenage girl. Hm.

Anyways, I've been worried a lot about the future, what I want to do, what I'm actually GOING to do. I've been worrying about improving, on... Well everything I suppose, I need to get better at theater, I need to get better at French and Korean, I need to get better at writing, and drawing, and being nice, and cooking, and being organized, etc. etc. etc. I've been worrying about responsibilities, and my irresponsibility, and what people are thinking about me; what people aren't thinking about me.

Basically I've been a frantic mess. Tonight I started reading Matthew, and pretty much everything I read really just made me think. I'm starting to realize I don't need to worry. I need to focus on God, not the future, and when I'm focused on Him, everything is clearer. It's kind of a hard feeling to explain, but everything just makes sense, and you have this wonderful sense of peace that makes me want to laugh and run around outside. It's just lovely.

I guess what I'm trying to say is:
Relax! Chill! Breath! It's Biblical. ;)

Whenever I edit a picture I already liked, I'm always worried I over-edited and ruined the original picture. What do you think?